Darkness...Light?

Tonight ...
Well this morning after a sleepless night I have pray
It's been real long since I prayed like that
With my whole being
totally believing

I prayed that in the immensity of darkness that my life has always been
I could once again find A light
And not those little lights that we all find in everyday life
the real light
The one that once opened my eyes
This light that I miss so much everyday
cause when god gave me that kind of light
...
I have let my own darkness take it away
I gave up on it
And am still paying the price for it

I am no psychic
I can't tell the future
and that is a good thing
But this morning
just after i prayed
I had a little light comming up on the battlefield
though it was one of those little light of everyday life
this one was supposed to be darkness
...
Thank you god !

This is war
Yes it is!