Soldier's nightmares...

It made quite some times

quite some times since I had any nightmares

My nightmares involve the same things

the people I love

There are those nightmares where I fight with someone of my family

Fight to the verge or insanity

I wake up from them with guiltiness and anger...

...

But in a way it's been so long , so many years that am a lil bit used to them.

Then...

....

I got those other nightmares, and to me they are the worsts ones, the ones I D rather not be able to make any dreams at night anymore cause they shake me so bad...

I just got one some minutes ago.

I went to war almost a year ago....

For one person, for two if I include myself ...

I lost that war.

The last thing I need is to dream of that person , it just wakes up the pain , each scars burn again as if it was yesterday , and am on the verge of insanity , my chest is about to explode , and unfotunately I am not able to cry as easily as i was before , so to feel released is impossible.

In that war I need all my strenghts , those FUCKING dreams, NIGHTMARES...

They got to stop ...

This is war,

Yes ... it is !